A Little Bit of Heimweh

Since we've lived here (2 years on Monday), I haven't been too homesick (surprisingly)....until now.  I don't know if it's the weather, a 2-year itch or because I was home recently, but I miss my friends, family, car and I'm nostalgic for life before Graz.  I want to be able to get in my Accord, turn on my tunes and drive wherever.  I want to be able to meet an old friend for fajitas or a good big salad and have a big Diet Coke in a way-too-big plastic glass full of lots of ice and a straw. (I acutally now like my once-a-week Coke Zeros (they aren't good for you and if I have them 2 days in a row, the addiction's back) cold in a glass without any horrific, diluting ice...one of the little things Europe has done to me.)

I want to go for a jog in the warm humidity down Tanglewood Lane.  I want to drop by my parents' house for dinner and sit on the stairs with the dog (totally did that) while eating a handful of peanut M&M's from mama's candy dish.  Then my sister could drop in with my nieces and we could just chat...they'd show me their newest tricks, dances and possibly fight over my attention. :)

{a picture (2007?) I found on my computer..I don't recommend looking at those when you are homesick.  I probably was like "get off of me fatties" a second after the picture was taken, but that's all part of the glory, isn't it? }

Someone recently commented anonymously asking whether we'd ever move back to Texas since we seem to be so accustomed to Graz.  The answer is, I'm not sure.  I know we won't stay in Graz, as much as we do like it here, as this is and always was temporary.  I'm 95% sure we'll move back to the States, but if it will be Texas, I don't know.

So, ich hab heimweh.   Don't feel sorry for me.  It was bound to (and should) happen every now and then.  Writing it down is just sorta cathartic, so that's why I'm doing so.

I'm off to get a Coke Zero, hotwire a car and drive around listening to some Van Morrison, k?

12 comments:

Elizabeth Ann (Elizabeth Ann's Recipe Box said...

oh girl. . . you are SPEAKING my language. . . fajitas, run down tanglewood lane, and way too big diet cokes. . . ps. have I told you that it has been almost 2 months since i have had a SIP of diet coke. . . oh the addiction. . . and yes, i still crave one EVERY DAY! :-) also to ease your homesickness. . . it is about to get hot here. . . like 100 degrees hot. . . maybe that helps???

Juliette said...

{{hugs!!}}
I've been struggling lately, too. I think b/c I've been mega stressed out w/work stuff these past few weeks and then I found a Tumblr site that just encapsulates everything (colors, clothes, music, etc) about a period in my life that makes me sooo nostalgic. I have to say sometimes I totally rock out in my car like a dork when I drive around by myself and it helps, ha. Go find one to hotwire! =P

Amy said...

i'm sorry coco. we miss you tons. i am amazed it has taken this long to get homesick. i never would've lasted that long! let's think of all the fun places you can move to when you come home... :)

Heather said...

It must be tough! Maybe go get a big applestrudel mit schlag (did I spell that right?) and wash it down w/ the Diet Coke. It might help w/ the homesickness!

Cat said...

Carolyn, I am praying for you this week and hoping that you find some peace during this season. You know how much we are the same in the fact that weather, our surroundings, etc. effect our mood, etc. I know it seems so different, but it's really the same....what I'm going through this week with moving. I know it's only 3.5 hours away, but I'm really sruggling and trying to find a peace about it. Should we move? are we doing the right thing? I will miss my BFF's SO much.....I think I'm going through some of the same funks you are, so I feel ya Sista Sue. :( Thinking about you and xoxo!

The Rigoloso's said...

I so feel you! New York is kinda it's own world, no? We finally found a Mexican joint that serves us chips & salsa when we sit down instead of having to order it, but I swear the amount they bring is kinda laughable. Thinking of you & wishing I could hop in my Honda & pick you up for the largest, icyiest(?) DC (I could use one myself) & some good tunes... Bff, afterall. xo

Christi Bennett @ pisforparty said...

Move back!!!

Lindsey Lenig said...

Think of all the wondey things you have there that we don't....I know I am at least one person envious of your adventure/life in Graz. PS you are missed SO much here!! XO

Molly said...

I'm nostalgic every day for those days. I miss you SO much, Cokes. We all do :)

Kim aus Kanada said...

Call me! We'll go for a ride oot and aboot in my car with the tunes cranked! I'll drive (wherever you want) and you can bee-bop! But bring your iPod, k? The radio stations here suck.
PS It's at least partially the weather...overcast, damp, cold and so so grey...it's life-sucking.

Jessica said...

Is it possible to find an American movie somewhere and sit in front of the TV with a large bowl of popcorn? That helped me through homesickness once!

Julie said...

Heimweh bites. You're on the right path with Coke and Snickers, though!! I miss the drop-ins, too; add to that...mid-day runs to get Tex-Mex, naps following with a belly full of queso, chips, Tacos al Carbon, and ice tea...Sigh. Hope today was better :-)!!

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